Day 35 of 40 - Aprehensive

Isn't it ridiculous? I've been so excited to have a weekend away by myself, and now that it's 48 hours away I'm starting to freak out a little.

Even though my husband is perfectly capable of taking care of his own children, I'm worried he'll be overwhelmed by having to do it all - and he'll end up resenting me for going away. Even though he's very at home in the kitchen and cooks really well, I still feel like I need to spend the next two days preparing meals and snacks to have in the fridge or freezer.

I guess it's my "provider" side. Even though I don't work outside the home or bring in an income, I provide for my family by creating a sense of home in our house, preparing meals, caring for the children, etc. How strange it will be to not do any of those things for three whole days?

And what will I do while I'm away? Well, I'm considering going straight from the airport to a pub to hear my old band play on Thursday night. I'm hoping to do some fabric shopping with my mother to prepare for making the children's Halloween costumes*. The weddings are on Saturday, so that takes care of most of that day. Other than that, I hope to sleep a good deal, and visit with family. And all the while I'll do my best not to worry about Francis and the children at home. Oh, and I'll try not to think about the fact that after I get back on Sunday evening, we have only ONE day left before Princess starts school next Tuesday! Argh!

(I should add that this will be my first time travelling alone since I was seven months pregnant with Princess who is now four and a half. And I've never been away overnight without at least one child!)

Breakfast: Two banana muffins sliced and French toasted with strawberries on top. A cup of licorice tea.
Lunch: Ground chicken with fajita seasoning topped with a heap of cherry tomatoes, salsa and half an avocado.
Supper: Ooh la la! I made the Char Siu (Chinese BBQ pork) from Well Fed. A little labour-intensive for a Tuesday night, but well worth the effort! We chowed down on the delicious pork with a side of roasted cauliflower and broccoli. (My husband said the pork was "soooooo good!", even saying it was better than his mother's!)
Snacks: A handful of sweet potato chips and TOO MANY DATES.

* Princess wants to be a mermaid with a shimmery purple tail, Music Man would like to be a blue dragon with big claws, and Francis and I think Baby Belle ought to be a little kitten because her "meow" sound is TO DIE FOR.